Today I had to take a unexpected trip into the doctor for my cast to be looked at. Something about the fact that I could move my toes sent the doctor scurrying to stop it. Cut, x-ray, dress, wrap, and recast.
...4 hours later (Yay, for those moments when they can work you in between appointments) I had my new boot.
Today I had a choice. I had a full day planned out. It didn't start like I had planned and it just kept getting messier and messier. I could have groaned about each little thing- began the day with a really sad phone call from a friend. (That I did groan over, but I determined to try and continue on my day.) But it was a rough start.
Next, I sat downstairs waiting for a phone call while I attempted to start school on time. If any of you have started up school after vacation you know that the first day back into a routine can be hitchy at best. Today was no different. We had some interruptions, some difficulty finding things, and some tricky assignments, but we pressed on, cheerfully. For all of about 30 minutes.
The doctor called back and indicated I needed to come in. Ok. And then began the 4 hours. It would have been easy to look at this day as a wash, to see the lack of schooling, the endless hours "wasted" at the doc's office, and only little glitches in between. I could have made that choice. I often do.
But today, I made the choice to be cheerful about it and look for ways to enjoy where I was at the moment. So...
When school wasn't going...I just stuck with what we were doing- reading aloud. We read and the kids colored some cards. They learned some history and we were able to send some notes that communicated love to my friend. Not the "normal" school, but worthy.
When we got to the doctor and discovered that it would be an hour and a half before the dr. could even see me, we (Brandon, Justin, and I) took the rare opportunity to have lunch together at the cafeteria. We had a delightful lunch, enjoying our little son between us and each other.
When I got back to the crowded casting area and had to wait for over an hour, I could have been irritated, but instead I had the opportunity to be a bright spot in the lives of the nurses. I was happy, smiled, joked, and tried to be accommodating. Around the corner, behind the next curtain, was a girl who was just a mess. I won't get into everything that she had going on, but there was a clear combination of things that had happened (accident) and things she had done to herself (drug type issues) that came together to make her one miserable, in pain human being. She was angry, lashing out, and there really was quite a difficulty in knowing where to start with her problems because one just rolled on top of another.
We both had to sit there for a long time. Not really in each others' presence, but near. I could have become frustrated with her there, but I took the chance to pray. It made me wonder how often God makes us wait in a place, hoping that we will notice someone besides ourselves that needs help and either help them, or pray or both. I'm afraid that most of the time I'm too busy feeling irritated that my plans are being changed without my consent that I don't pay the least attention to others or their needs. Oh that I would remember today and how energizing it was to me and to the other staff, and I think some of my comments seemed to help the girl be more peaceful.
I don't know why she stuck with me so. Perhaps because I heard that she was the same age as me, perhaps because behind her rotten miserable attitude I saw a mirror of myself and how I respond to others sometimes, or perhaps just because she was so obviously sad and I had no idea how to help her, but wanted to. Whatever it was, she did stick; both as a check to myself to be kind even in difficulty and to pray for others around me.
It wasn't the day that I planned, but it was a good one- worth the changes and switches and the waits. That's what I choose today. And, by God's grace, I purpose to choose it tomorrow.
"This is the day that the Lord has made, let us rejoice and be glad in it." Psalm 118:24